- a few more cards
- finish off a project for my daycare family
- can come up with some kind of video or slideshow?
- what idea can I dream up for friends?
- should I try to fill a stocking for my kids?! Everyone else is doing it!
- I should come up with a Christmas this ...
- ... or a Christmas that ...
I like the creative flow of thoughts that is streaming through my brain right now but I'm ready wind down and just coast.
What will I do with my thoughts after this season is behind me? I have jumped from the frying pan (the family book project) into the fire (the family reunion) and from there I seem to have hopped into the embers of said fire (Christmas).
What is left? Ashes?!
I don't want the fire to burn out. I want to keep blowing air into the dying embers and keep some part of this creative spirit alive.
I'm tired of the pressure I feel at Christmas. I just want to give and do and 'be' for the sake of giving and doing and being.
I want to flip this calendar page into a bright and shiny new month without commitment or plans or a to-do-list which never ends.
I may wander for a spell. I may lose myself in a great sea of nothingness for just a little while. I may accomplish great things. Then again, I may accomplish nothing at all.
I know I need a little bit of pressure to keep me moving in a forward direction. I have done what I set out to do this year. I pressured myself into doing what I had put off for so long. What is next?
There is a spark of an idea here. A glimmer over there. Some part of this feeling inside of me has to stay alive.
It is a fine line between burning up by doing too much verses burning out by doing nothing at all. I just want to find that sweet spot right in the middle.
I want to keep those home fires within myself burning.