I'm waking up empty these days. I believe I'm losing my ability to write so I am just going to let the words free fall this morning and see what happens.
I had an unexpected day off yesterday. And I spent 95% of the day sitting in front of the TV watching Telemiracle.
I have gotten to "know" Jeffery Straker and Andrea Menard up close and personally, thanks to a dear friend who introduced me to the wonderful world of house concerts.
Add that rather impressive line up, to the fact that my great niece, my niece-in-law and her sister sang at the Telemiracle and that was a good enough reason to sit still with the day and just take in the good will, incredible stories and outpouring of love and generosity from the people of Saskatchewan. From 9:00 p.m. Saturday night until 5:00 Sunday morning, $4,312,457 was raised.
Amazing things happen when people dream big, spread the word and ask for a helping hand.
The key is in the dream. If you don't dare to dream, you don't witness the miracles that can happen by stepping out of what is comfortable.
The fire in my heart hasn't died but it certainly needs to be stirred up and needs to be fed some oxygen.
Oxygen. That is key.
Breathe in deeply. Hold it. Exhale slowly.
It's good for your lungs too. But just as importantly, I believe it is good for your brain and quality of life.
Inhale the day today. Dare to chase a small dream. Make a game of chasing a few impossible dreams.
I am talking to myself here. The dream centre of my brain is out of order and I need to fix it. I am not certain where to begin but I thought I'd let my fingers do the talking and see if I can find a road map out of this place I'm in.
The key is in the dream. When I stop dreaming, I lose the essence of who I am. I need to find that part of myself so I can reroute my thoughts and get the heck out of this place I've been visiting lately.
That is life. The ebbs and flows. The highs, the lows. The good, the bad, the sad, the scary.
Why did I emphasize the negative in that last sentence?
I can tell my thoughts are struggling to find the positive. That is not who I am or where I want to be.
I know I need to focus on gratitude. That is the beginning of the road to positivity. Once I'm on that road, only good things can happen. Well bad things can happen too. But one tends to roll with the punches better if you start out on solid ground.
I'm looking for solid ground. I know it is here someplace. And I know it starts with me.
It is a new week. Anything can happen...