"Life is always listening to the silent requests of your heart and mind. What you have in your life right now is a function of your own requests." ~ Iyanla Vanzant
I do honestly believe that I am nestled up within a life that is reflecting my innermost thoughts. Which is a little disconcerting just as much as it is reassuring.
The peace, the harmony and the state of calmness and bliss reflect how I want to live and breathe my life. Good health, healthy relationships and close ties to people within my little circle of friends and family nurture every little positive thought I think.
My home is my castle. Not because it is grand or without imperfections. Because it is filled with all that matters to me.
A home that is accessorized with at least one child and one cat at all times. I don't know how it would feel to live a life without one or the other. And something tells me I won't have to worry about that any time soon.
A life where I work out of my home and all that I need to exist, lies within these very four walls and the fence line which borders our yard.
A computer that keeps me tied to the outside world when I want to live like a recluse. I am not sure who I would be without my ability to sit and write out loud or in private and send off a message on a whim.
It is a simple life and I love simplicity.
Yet how will I feel about this very life ten or twenty years from now if I don't make any changes to it now?
When I live in the moment, I love the moment I am in.
When I don't worry about money, there is always enough.
When my priorities start to shift, I feel empowered enough to make a move to shift things in a new direction.
When I don't worry about the future, the present is a gift.
Yesterday morning, I sat down with "numbers". The moment I start dealing with numbers, the "letters" (words) in my mind start to shift.
I sat down and tried to project where I will be four months from now, when I know there is little that I know for sure about what these next four months will bring.
Am I living in a delusional world or do I have it right? Living in the present moment is the way to live a life.
My dilemma lies in my finances at the moment. I have to be cautious but I love "investing" in our home. New windows are the reason I sat down with numbers yesterday morning.
Do I now regret the money I spent on some of my little getaways this past year? Not for a moment. Gift money funded my most frivolous weekend. Pennies from heaven must have funded the second trip because I just know it wasn't a struggle. It was a trip that was meant to be taken.
This little trip down reality lane is necessary from time to time. It grounds me and makes me take control of that-which-is-in-my-control. When I respect my financial limitations things always have a way of working out in the end. It is not something you learn in any accounting class but it has been what I have found to be true.
"You bring about what you think about."
I am going to continue to think about the abundance within my life. There is always enough. Always. I shall not be foolhardy but I will invest wisely and trust it will all work out in the end. And if it doesn't? It is not yet the end.