Only 6 more working hours until my weekend begins. I have cleared the slate from errands and any must-do items. So the hours that are left over from 3:15 Saturday afternoon until 7 am on Monday are mine, to do as I please.
And dancing was once again very pleasing tonight. I love ending my week on the dance floor. One of these years, I'll find a way to spend more time there. Tonight I was thinking about the eventuality of getting back to the group classes. A little more time and I'll get back to those as well. It just added a little extra pleasure to the whole experience to be around and get to know others from the studio. The day will come again.
I have officially caught up on the exercising that I missed in the early a.m. hours of the day. My Youngest even joined me tonight and by the sounds of it, he may do it again (I'm actually kind of curious to see how he keeps up with the cardio). And he's even talking about both of us eating healthier and less snacking. Wow. This is all good. Maybe I found an exercise-buddy and a positive-thinking coach right under my own roof!
This evening has slipped away on me. I'm so looking forward to the weekend!! The one small pile that I have on the table isn't overwhelming. I can't wait to get at it. Tomorrow.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Down to One Pile
I have quite literally had things 'piling' up on me.
I have been putting my outstanding projects in piles, so that I know where I stand with each little thing I have on the go. Notes to myself. My little piles of paper and paper work, pictures and albums. It seems that I've had about 3 piles on the go at all times for the past week. And I'm down to one.
Phone calls have been made; emails are caught up; letters have been written and sent; outstanding 'problems' have been solved; and even my income tax is done and ready to mail.
The real boon is that I exercised for over an hour last night and kind of caught myself up from the mornings I had missed. I think I'll do the same tonight - it felt good to get physical last night after my brain work-outs of late.
I may have figured out the insatiable appetite lately as well. I have been cramming lunch and supper into my day like they are just another chore on the endless to-do-list-in-my-mind. I'll eat on the run, squeeze it in while the kids are here, so that the minute the kids are gone for the day 'the evening is mine'. Last night I waited for the last person to leave. I took my supper and sat down with it. I savored every morsel and revelled in the peace and quiet in the house ... and I was satisfied. Completely. I knew that the void I was filling had nothing to do with hunger. I also knew that I wasn't depressed or lonely or 'empty' in any capacity. None of the normal triggers to my binge eating were happening. But I think I found the 'void' that needs to be filled ... quiet time for myself.
It feels great to have just one small pile looking at me. It is the same small pile of ideas and a notepad that I've had around since I started compiling ideas and information for 'The Book'.
One small little pile. Exercise in the evening. Sitting down to eat supper. This equals contentment and 'fills me up'.
I have been putting my outstanding projects in piles, so that I know where I stand with each little thing I have on the go. Notes to myself. My little piles of paper and paper work, pictures and albums. It seems that I've had about 3 piles on the go at all times for the past week. And I'm down to one.
Phone calls have been made; emails are caught up; letters have been written and sent; outstanding 'problems' have been solved; and even my income tax is done and ready to mail.
The real boon is that I exercised for over an hour last night and kind of caught myself up from the mornings I had missed. I think I'll do the same tonight - it felt good to get physical last night after my brain work-outs of late.
I may have figured out the insatiable appetite lately as well. I have been cramming lunch and supper into my day like they are just another chore on the endless to-do-list-in-my-mind. I'll eat on the run, squeeze it in while the kids are here, so that the minute the kids are gone for the day 'the evening is mine'. Last night I waited for the last person to leave. I took my supper and sat down with it. I savored every morsel and revelled in the peace and quiet in the house ... and I was satisfied. Completely. I knew that the void I was filling had nothing to do with hunger. I also knew that I wasn't depressed or lonely or 'empty' in any capacity. None of the normal triggers to my binge eating were happening. But I think I found the 'void' that needs to be filled ... quiet time for myself.
It feels great to have just one small pile looking at me. It is the same small pile of ideas and a notepad that I've had around since I started compiling ideas and information for 'The Book'.
One small little pile. Exercise in the evening. Sitting down to eat supper. This equals contentment and 'fills me up'.
Testing 123
I don't know if my computer troubles are over or not. My computer doctor tells me I have no problem (it's other peoples problems). I think he is in denial! If I am the common denominator to all these strange messages attached to my emails in other peoples inboxes (despite their internet providers), and I'm not getting any odd messages ... how could this be other peoples fault?
But isn't that the mind set of many? It's 'the other guys fault' ... 'blame someone else' ... 'it couldn't be me'.
I am all too willing to accept blame where it is due. I won't take all of the blame all of the time. But I'm willing to own up to my part of a problem.
It isn't just emails and computers. It's life.
And so begins another day ...
But isn't that the mind set of many? It's 'the other guys fault' ... 'blame someone else' ... 'it couldn't be me'.
I am all too willing to accept blame where it is due. I won't take all of the blame all of the time. But I'm willing to own up to my part of a problem.
It isn't just emails and computers. It's life.
And so begins another day ...
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Idling
I need to idle a moment before I take my next deep breath and carry on.
This ambition/overload/idle cycle seems to be somewhat predictable. My brain won't stop even in the idling mode so I should be able to hit the ground running when the ambition mode hits again.
Exercising. I managed to do it religiously for 16 mornings in a row. Despite what I had going on in my life, I was dedicated to getting back in the habit.
Then I noticed my appetite. I am shovelling food into my already full stomach. Why? I think the stress levels have a little to do with it. But I'm wondering more about the exhaustion levels? I wonder if losing that hour of sleep in the morning to get up and exercise is messing with my food intake. So ... I didn't exercise the last two mornings. That doesn't mean that I can't get right back at it tomorrow ... but my positive 'self talk' isn't sounding too positive about this exercise thing. Not if it means doubling what I eat!
I'm sitting here staring at the computer screen ... idling ... and wondering if I should make myself some popcorn or not.
Idling ....
This ambition/overload/idle cycle seems to be somewhat predictable. My brain won't stop even in the idling mode so I should be able to hit the ground running when the ambition mode hits again.
Exercising. I managed to do it religiously for 16 mornings in a row. Despite what I had going on in my life, I was dedicated to getting back in the habit.
Then I noticed my appetite. I am shovelling food into my already full stomach. Why? I think the stress levels have a little to do with it. But I'm wondering more about the exhaustion levels? I wonder if losing that hour of sleep in the morning to get up and exercise is messing with my food intake. So ... I didn't exercise the last two mornings. That doesn't mean that I can't get right back at it tomorrow ... but my positive 'self talk' isn't sounding too positive about this exercise thing. Not if it means doubling what I eat!
I'm sitting here staring at the computer screen ... idling ... and wondering if I should make myself some popcorn or not.
Idling ....
Monday, February 25, 2008
Wish Granted
I didn't quite get 'a second Sunday' as I wrote about yesterday ... but I sat down this morning and thought I have to do something about this overload situation I'm in. So I emailed my supervisor at work before I did anything else and asked for the first available Saturday off. And I got it! A perfect Saturday because I can't foresee using it for some of the upcoming things I know about. Two days off in a row. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.................
I've downloaded my 'Vintage Family Album' as a slideshow for the blog this morning. I had to demonstrate just what has been overloading my days ... as I downloaded and organized the 213 photos that I have amassed. I have scanned and labeled all of them with the correct 'dpi's for 'The Book'; have printed, labelled and organized the 'hard' copies of almost all of them. I think I am ready to return the last photo albums to their rightful owners. And then .... I can get on with the business of actually writing something!! The photos I accumulated took on a life of their own. And now I think it is time to put them to rest.
My next project is to send off some letters to my aunts, requesting information for 'their chapter' in the book. While I'm waiting for the responses to that, I hope to start putting the rest of the 'story' together in a conversational tone. I glanced at the 25+ pages of information I have typed up so far and my knees went week. I am wondering how in the world I can tackle all of this. One chapter at a time. I'll start at the beginning ...
My 'sick' computer remains intermittently ill. I called my 'Computer Doctor' this morning and he said it sounds like it has got a bug and he is coming by Wednesday morning to make his house call. It will be so good to get this problem looked at by a professional. I called all the technical help people I could find, and tried everything they suggested. But it only cleans it up for a short period and then I'm back to receiving the odd messages again.
My Ebay transaction that went awry is just about fixed up. When I finally got ahold of the seller, he was more than willing to refund my money as soon as I mailed it (the Microsoft Works program that was not only not what I had ordered, but it didn't even work) back to him. I believe that is days away from 'money in the bank'. Then I can go shopping in a real store to buy the Microsoft Word program I need. And I'll be up and running ... and ready to write!!!
A fresh new week ... already the week has started off 100% better than last week. My babysitting families are not throwing me any curve balls. In fact one family called me and we have figured out a way to keep me 'in the know' for the next time their schedule goes crazy. I think the week was pretty topsy turvy for a lot of people in 'my world' last week. We've addressed the problem and we all know where we stand again.
Life is good.
I've downloaded my 'Vintage Family Album' as a slideshow for the blog this morning. I had to demonstrate just what has been overloading my days ... as I downloaded and organized the 213 photos that I have amassed. I have scanned and labeled all of them with the correct 'dpi's for 'The Book'; have printed, labelled and organized the 'hard' copies of almost all of them. I think I am ready to return the last photo albums to their rightful owners. And then .... I can get on with the business of actually writing something!! The photos I accumulated took on a life of their own. And now I think it is time to put them to rest.
My next project is to send off some letters to my aunts, requesting information for 'their chapter' in the book. While I'm waiting for the responses to that, I hope to start putting the rest of the 'story' together in a conversational tone. I glanced at the 25+ pages of information I have typed up so far and my knees went week. I am wondering how in the world I can tackle all of this. One chapter at a time. I'll start at the beginning ...
My 'sick' computer remains intermittently ill. I called my 'Computer Doctor' this morning and he said it sounds like it has got a bug and he is coming by Wednesday morning to make his house call. It will be so good to get this problem looked at by a professional. I called all the technical help people I could find, and tried everything they suggested. But it only cleans it up for a short period and then I'm back to receiving the odd messages again.
My Ebay transaction that went awry is just about fixed up. When I finally got ahold of the seller, he was more than willing to refund my money as soon as I mailed it (the Microsoft Works program that was not only not what I had ordered, but it didn't even work) back to him. I believe that is days away from 'money in the bank'. Then I can go shopping in a real store to buy the Microsoft Word program I need. And I'll be up and running ... and ready to write!!!
A fresh new week ... already the week has started off 100% better than last week. My babysitting families are not throwing me any curve balls. In fact one family called me and we have figured out a way to keep me 'in the know' for the next time their schedule goes crazy. I think the week was pretty topsy turvy for a lot of people in 'my world' last week. We've addressed the problem and we all know where we stand again.
Life is good.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Could I Please Have Just One More Sunday?
The day passed in a blur. I decided to allow myself to sleep in until 8:00 this morning. I'm sure my body needed the rest. But boy, could I have used that extra 1 1/2 hours, now that I must wind myself down for the night.
Another day immersed with 'The Book'. I seem to get myself deeper into this every day. I just scanned over the rough draft of information that I have accumulated and it's a little bit scary. How to put this all together .... it is really no wonder that they label movies 'Based on a true story'! There are a lot of small details that are missing and to make the story flow freely, it would be tempting to add a little fiction. Just to put it all together.
If only I could just have one more Sunday .... I may actually catch myself up to where I want to be.
Another day immersed with 'The Book'. I seem to get myself deeper into this every day. I just scanned over the rough draft of information that I have accumulated and it's a little bit scary. How to put this all together .... it is really no wonder that they label movies 'Based on a true story'! There are a lot of small details that are missing and to make the story flow freely, it would be tempting to add a little fiction. Just to put it all together.
If only I could just have one more Sunday .... I may actually catch myself up to where I want to be.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Here We Go Again...
I wrote and vented a little in my blog last night, thinking that it was time to walk away from it all and just give my projects a rest ....
Then I started puttering. Well. I certainly know how to make my life difficult at times! I had been taking all the photos (that I've been accumulating from my aunts) I wanted copied to Walmart and going through the scanning process, one picture at a time. Then when I had an entire album that was glued in, I scanned the entire page and printed off 8" X 10" copies; came home; cut them out and then labelled them. Omigosh. The time and money that I have invested (personally, I believe it is worth it though)! But last night after my 'System Overload' rant, I realized that I could scan my photos (at home); then order them online; and simply go and pick them up!! Why didn't I realize this before??? It was my phone call to the publishing company that spurred me into scanning my photos yesterday and the wheels started turning. There is definately a learning curve happening here. Next time will be much easier!!
So I am energized once more. To know that I don't have to invest 2 hours Sunday morning in the Walmart photo centre makes me so happy I could dance!
And dance I shall. I have ideas of how to best utilize the bedroom we are redoing downstairs so that not only will I have a guest room that will be delightful for my guests ... but I can have my 'dance floor' back (in the playroom downstairs). I have homework this week for dancing. Just some simple little things that I could practise so much better if there wasn't so much furniture in the play room.
The thoughts are once again flowing freely and happily. I am reinspired once again. I really need to take one project and work it through to the end. I have sooooooo many ideas swirling around in my head right now. But to do them justice I really must sit back and think a bit, before I dive into anything (else) head first right now.
The book. Stay focused on 'The Book'. I still picture it in my mind. The questions I still have are unending. The ideas are still forthcoming. So much for the goal to 'write a novel in a month'. Once I've gathered all the information and pictures, I think the actual writing will be a delight. At this point I sort of feel like I'm gathering facts for a school project. This part involves work, time and some dedication to the end result. The next phase ... writing ... shall be fun. This I am sure.
So I am off and running once again. The waves of energy amaze me. There seems to be no such thing as having my feet kicked out from under me and stopping me cold. I guess the overload periods are there for a purpose. Time to let things in my life and brain idle for a moment, so I can come back at it with a fresh outlook.
And now I must get ready for my day at work. Leaving my house to go to work feels like such an inconvenience at times. I love that I can earn the majority of my living right under my own roof (and next week, I vow to do a better job tending my children ... this week was not one I am proud of ... the 'system overload' thing was creeping into my days far too much).
'System Reloaded' and ready to go!!
Then I started puttering. Well. I certainly know how to make my life difficult at times! I had been taking all the photos (that I've been accumulating from my aunts) I wanted copied to Walmart and going through the scanning process, one picture at a time. Then when I had an entire album that was glued in, I scanned the entire page and printed off 8" X 10" copies; came home; cut them out and then labelled them. Omigosh. The time and money that I have invested (personally, I believe it is worth it though)! But last night after my 'System Overload' rant, I realized that I could scan my photos (at home); then order them online; and simply go and pick them up!! Why didn't I realize this before??? It was my phone call to the publishing company that spurred me into scanning my photos yesterday and the wheels started turning. There is definately a learning curve happening here. Next time will be much easier!!
So I am energized once more. To know that I don't have to invest 2 hours Sunday morning in the Walmart photo centre makes me so happy I could dance!
And dance I shall. I have ideas of how to best utilize the bedroom we are redoing downstairs so that not only will I have a guest room that will be delightful for my guests ... but I can have my 'dance floor' back (in the playroom downstairs). I have homework this week for dancing. Just some simple little things that I could practise so much better if there wasn't so much furniture in the play room.
The thoughts are once again flowing freely and happily. I am reinspired once again. I really need to take one project and work it through to the end. I have sooooooo many ideas swirling around in my head right now. But to do them justice I really must sit back and think a bit, before I dive into anything (else) head first right now.
The book. Stay focused on 'The Book'. I still picture it in my mind. The questions I still have are unending. The ideas are still forthcoming. So much for the goal to 'write a novel in a month'. Once I've gathered all the information and pictures, I think the actual writing will be a delight. At this point I sort of feel like I'm gathering facts for a school project. This part involves work, time and some dedication to the end result. The next phase ... writing ... shall be fun. This I am sure.
So I am off and running once again. The waves of energy amaze me. There seems to be no such thing as having my feet kicked out from under me and stopping me cold. I guess the overload periods are there for a purpose. Time to let things in my life and brain idle for a moment, so I can come back at it with a fresh outlook.
And now I must get ready for my day at work. Leaving my house to go to work feels like such an inconvenience at times. I love that I can earn the majority of my living right under my own roof (and next week, I vow to do a better job tending my children ... this week was not one I am proud of ... the 'system overload' thing was creeping into my days far too much).
'System Reloaded' and ready to go!!
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